Monthly Archives: September 2010

Last Day of Daddy Daycare

Hi everyone, I hope your week is going well.

What a week so far, having a ton of fun with my boys. My children are definitely a blessing, for sure. I wish I would have written a little more on my blog this week, but I have been doing some research that has taken quite a bit of my time. Plus, as you might already have figured out, I have been busy managing Daddy Daycare.

Health – Hum..I been OK this week. Unfortunately, I have been a tad nervous about my big day this Sunday. I think the added stress is messing with my lungs. I am breathing well most of the time, which is a good thing.

Marathon – Yay, it is almost here. I walked a few miles Tuesday pushing the boys in the Bob stroller and felt really good. My knees are not complaining as much as they have for the last few weeks. As much as I wanted to get training mileage in, having screwed-up knees on marathon day sounded worst than being under-trained. Yeah, a person could beat themselves up over what the right decision was in this matter, but this is how I thought was best to handle my overuse injury.

Religion – Oh boy, week two of heavy thinking on the subject. This has been the number one drainer of my time this week. One of these days I am going to find peace in this area.

Be well everyone!


Daddy Daycare Starts Today

Yes, the usual daycare person went to Vegas for a week, so the only business that would take my wild things was Daddy Daycare. Not really, it is not often that I get to spend this much time with my boys so I am looking forward to doing just that. However, I had a dry run last Thursday and it was not pretty, this coming from the DW. Wish me luck!

Health – Doing pretty darn good! The meds seem to be keeping my asthma at bay. Plus, I might add, I think I am finally getting my emotions under control about my illness. There was times when I truly hated how I felt (or maybe most of the time). Lately, I haven’t felt the need to whine.

Training – Darn, it is just plain lacking. My legs are still showing signs of overuse, so I am just not comfortable about putting my last mileage in before the marathon. Just my luck, lungs feel better but legs do not. Although, I am not going to stress much about it. I survived many long mileage days during training and the marathon should be nothing new. Yes, it is 10k more than I ever walked but I am confident that I can finish.

Plus, this is the last race for this marathon, next year its name is going to change to Rock n Roll St. Louis and be ran down town. It would be nice to get a medal from this race. Huh…talk about my first its last kind of thing. However, the course is not going away, they are planning to use some of the course to make a spring 10K race. If they make it a big deal of it, I will probably give it a try next year. I do not know if I said this before, I think I like 10Ks

Oh boy, Daddy Daycare is starting, got to go!

Have a great week everyone!!!

Friday Ramblings

Happy Friday everone!!! I hope the week went well for you.

Health – This week has not been good but not too bad either. I am hanging in there hoping that next week will be better.

Training – Oh boy, I did 4 miles on Wednesday and that was about it so far. I have 8 miles on tap for Sunday.

The marathon is looming, next weekend. Am I ready? Mentally? Yes Physically? No. I really do not know what my fitness level is going to be when I start the race. I think my biggest worry is recovery. Basically, I planned for the race to be a training race for the Goofy Challenge in January. I never foresaw  myself being this under-trained for this race. I planned to go slow so that recovery from the race would only take a couple of weeks. Now, I am possibly going to be completely wrecked,  taking weeks to recover. The reason for the short recovery time is because I swing right into training for the Goofy Challenge. I was hoping to use that momentum to help me prepare my confidence level and fitness level to cope with a 39.3 mile weekend. 

I guess I over looked marathon training and building a new fitness base to be that difficult. Yes, I could blame it all on my newly diagnosed illness if it would make me feel better, but I would be fooling myself. A lot of this is me doing to much too soon. Hum…that seems to be a familiar theme for me.

Frankly, I am going to find a way to finish the marathon and gain the personal achievement I am looking for. Yes, I want to be a marathoner.

Anyway, that  is some of the stuff on my mind.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Not a Good Week so Far

Hey everyone, I hope your week is going well.

Well, not feeling that great today. Chest is tight and starting to cough some. My sinuses started raring its ugly self a couple of days ago and this is probably helping my flaring. My PFs are pretty good at the moment but I am going to be on asthma attack alert, regardless.

Anyway, I have been in heavy thought (maybe, heavy heart too) about, oh my, religion or lack there of in my life. Truth be told, I totally disregarded a religious holiday that was supposed to be dear to my heart. Interesting enough, I was at home on eve of this religious holiday reading the associated prayer book, when it struck me that this is not going to work. I mean for one, I am reading at the table while my wife is interrupting me, wanting to show me nativity scenes that she is thinking about purchasing. Plus, reading some of the poems and thoughts that have been handed down though generations to prepare the congregation for prayer weighed heavily on me. It ended up putting me in an emotional and distracted mess, so I just could not make it work this year.

So, this week I have been overloaded with thoughts and frustration about who I am and my connection with my Creator. Believe me, I would prefer not to struggle like this. What is wrong with me? Why can’t I find peace? Better yet, why is God being silent when I need him?  Now, do not get me wrong. God has been by my side taking care of me and my family, but my religious struggles have not been touched. Does God want me to figure it out myself? I sure hope not, because I am sure making a mess out it every waking moment.

Needless to say, I am not happy! Yes, I realize that life is never going to be a bed of roses, but a person should be able to find some peace and happiness, regardless.

Oh well, I am just cranky.

Please have a good week everyone!!!

Friday Ramblings

Hello Everyone!!! I hope your week was pleasant.

Health – Yet another great week for me. I did have a flare-up Wednesday morning do too forgetting to take my meds the night before. Yeah, I was so tight and sore when I woke-up that I could barely get a peak flow reading. After I got some meds in me, I was good to go the rest of the day. I am still possibly getting some drug side effects that are becoming a tad annoying. There has been times this week when I have been pretty dizzy most of the day. Not sure what this means, so I will be discussing with my doctor. On a really good note, I blow the best peak flow reading so far of 550 (That is 84% of my predicted value, Yahoo).

Training – Or lack there of! Not much going on since my left leg started hurting last Sunday. Hum…I would have loved to have gotten in the 20 miles that day if I could. That would have given me some peace of mind that I am lacking at the moment. Like I said Monday, first marathons are all about survival. Anyway, my left leg is starting to come around. I woke up this morning to a set of much fresher legs. So, we will see how they do on Sunday, 12 very slow miles.

Just for fun – My oldest son is still learning to talk and sometimes it is quite fun to listen to him. Many, many times he points in the sky at something and says, “I want to fly a guy”. What he really means is, “I want to fly in the sky”. Sometimes his mother teases him about it saying, “how about flying a girl”. He says, “No, fly a guy”. I can’t help but laugh. Yeah, he thinks he is saying it correctly, he is so cute.

That is the weeks roundup. Have a great weekend!!!

30 Things You May Not Know About My Invisible Illness Meme

I guess this is better late than never. 😉 I think the National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week is a wonderful thing and thought I would participate in their meme.

1. The illness I live with is: Asthma
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2010
3. But I had symptoms since: I had some symptoms in 2009 but only lasted for three weeks.
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Remembering to take daily medications, something I have not had to worry about for 40 years. I had just started becoming an athlete again when my asthma symptoms arrived and stayed, now all my dreams of participating in marathons have been reevaluated to fit my health needs.
5. Most people assume: Just because I am training and competing in running events does not mean I am healthy. I take a huge health risk every time I lace-up my running shoes.
6. The hardest part about mornings are: I usually do not breathe well in the mornings so I usually take it easy. If I train early, I usually take my fast acting medication, but if I am really bad, I do not train.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: It is basically a primetime soap, Gray’s Anatomy.
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: I guess my smart phone.
9. The hardest part about nights are: Always waking up at 2:00am, either from asthma symptoms or medication side affects (or Both).
10. Each day I take 2 daily inhalers, 1 rescue inhaler, daily nasal spray, pills & vitamins. (No comments, please)
11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Not Interested
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: I choose neither!
13. Regarding working and career: I am pretty much unaffected really; just need time for doctor visits. So far, I have not missed work because of symptoms.
14. People would be surprised to know: That a person can be here one day and gone the next, asthma can kill if it is not properly maintained!!!
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: That it is never going away!
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: My illness is still new to me, so that is a work in progress. I am going to participate in a marathon in 3 weeks, that one comes pretty close.
17. The commercials about my illness: I have not seen any yet.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: So far I have managed to not miss anything, but I do struggle sometimes.
19. It was really hard to have to give up: Again, my asthma has not stopped me much from what I like to do. But it has been tough to give up much needed marathon training time because of my illness flaring up.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Studying my illness
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: I need more than a day of feeling normal to answer this question.
22. My illness has taught me: Not to take for granted my health or any one else’s. I need to start showing more compassion for those invisible illnesses, visible illnesses, and disabilities.
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: That I am taking too many drugs and I can become dependent on them.
24. But I love it when people: When friends allow my to lean on them for comfort when I am having a rough day, especially when I lean on them a lot.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: It could be worse; I could be in the ER!
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: It is a real shock at first, but find some friends to talk too. Just having someone to voice your concerns and discomforts with, even if every day, is a blessing.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: How hard it actually is to mentally deal with it, especially on the real hard days.
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Listen!!!
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: I have an invisible illness and I know that my illness in misunderstood by most of the general public. Even people I meet everyday who have asthma, help promote this misunderstanding by keeping there internal struggles invisible.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: humbled, if anything.

Walk Talk – Why Did I Get Off the Couch?

I find it hard to believe that it’s been a little more than a year ago, August 2009, when I started walking for fitness. When I started, I would never have imagined how far it would have taken me. I have done 4 races and a few charity walks in a year, one of them being a distance race.

Humm…What got me started? It was a couple of things actually. One of them being a fitness level thing and the other is missing the chance to utilize my competitive spirit.

Believe it or not, I was overweight and my fitness level had really gone down hill after many years of doing as little as possible. There was no way that I could have been happy about that. I started to worry that I would not be fit enough to play outdoor sports with my son. I just wanted to be a daddy that could at least make attempt to keep up with his children. Sadly, for what I would like too do, I was in no shape. I might add that I also was having a sharp pain in my left knee when I walked. I suspected that it was do too muscle weakness. Come to find out, I was right and have been pain free for quite a while. Of course, loosing nearly 35 pounds helps also.

The second thing was missing the competitive side of me. I used to be a cyclist when I was younger. I would say that I was a pretty decent one at that. I loved the distance side of riding. I was not competitive in the since of racing to win, instead I liked endurance challenges. I have ridden countless metric centuries and sadly only one century in my cycling days. Without a doubt, I miss those days. Yeah, I could jump back on the bike and do it again, but it just is not the same as it used to be. I was in the Army at the time and when I moved back home after serving 4 years, it was just not the same anymore. I did not enjoy riding. I sure missed my riding group and still do to this day. And to think, it is almost 20 years now when I moved away.

One day Illana-Davita had a blog post about winning a mug from a walking contest on Walker Tracker. The contest involved walking a 10K step average during a certain time frame and then a raffle for a mug, for those who met the goal. I thought that was the coolest thing so I bought myself a pedometer and signed up. I found Walker Tracker to be helpful for me when it comes to motivation. I did not feel like cheating, so I spent much of my free time walking to get my steps in. I actually signed up for this mug competition numerous times but never did win a mug, darn.

Well, that is kind of what got the ball a rolling. I really did not get into racing until November when a friend told me about the Frost Bite 10 mile race in December. I had already done a few charity walks throughout the fall. Plus, I was doing longer walks on the weekend, some in the 6 mile range. Not sure why I was doing distance training, but I was building a base already so I decided to compete in the Frost Bite. I did really well in the 10 mile race and pretty much got the racing bug from then on. I had so much fun competing in this race that it actually brought back the competitiveness that I so missed from my cycling days.

After the Frost Bite I started looking into endurance racing and Fitness Walker\Race Walking. Come too find out, a lot of distance races are walker friendly and I have a really good shot at finishing them. So, I set my sites on a local half marathon and started training. I trained throughout the winter and raced in my first half marathon in April 2010. I had an awesome day, performance wise, which gave me the inspiration to start competing in big mileage races, full marathons and possibly ultra marathons.

As of this writing, I am 4 weeks away from my first marathon. Training for a marathon was and is a very humbling thing for me and when I started, I had really no idea what I was getting myself into. It was a lot of hard work with health complications mixed in, but I feel ready to get it done.

All in all, I am really grateful to have such good friends that care about me and are very supportive of my walking this last year. So far, I have done some amazing things and I hope that this continues.

Well, that it in a nut shell. Thanks for taking the time to read my post…